Rikiki has recently completed a 6 month DTS “Spirit and Fire” in YWAM Wrexham. He has been involved with several local ministries and has been growing and maturing in the gifts God gave him. After the DTS, Rikiki moved back to America but heard God calling him to come back to UK, specifically YWAM Derby and serve the Lord there. Rikiki needs a monthly sum of £425 provided for him to be able to come and serve God in Derby. God is faithful and we believe and pray that His will be done. If you feel the Lord wants you to support Rikiki, please don’t hesitate to get in contact with him and/or donate to him:
Email and PayPal: email@example.com
Phone number: +13072877576
Also if you have Amazon Prime you could donate $3 a month to Rikiki for free, as he is twitch.tv affiliate (follow this link for guidance how to do that: https://youtu.be/r45wpOezy9I)
Soon there also will be Gofundme page through which you would be able to donate.
Please keep Rikiki in your prayers so He follows where the Lord leads him and don’t hesitate to reach out to him.
Please find Rikiki’s full testimony below:
“My name is Rikiki and here is my story.
I was born in Las Vegas, Nevada on the 25th of December 1994. I have always thought I was unplanned, an accident child…a “party baby”. I spent most of my childhood in Southern California. I and my siblings were homeschooled, our parents sometimes took us to church, but it was never a regular thing. When I was around 10 years old, my father lost his job. It was a very well-paying job, the downfall of which was that it involved a lot of traveling and he would spend barely any time with us at home. Consequently, I have never been able to have a real relationship with my dad.
We moved to Wyoming and had to live with our uncle until we could get a house. My dad got another job in about a year’s time and we finally moved into our new home. When I started a new school, I struggled to make friends, I didn’t know how to interact with other children. But at the end of primary school, everyone wanted to be my friend, I became a “cool kid”.
After a year, my dad decided to leave his new job and work for the company his friend had just started. This ended up being a big mistake, my dad lost a lot of money and couldn’t financially support a family of 6 anymore, so my mom had to work more. This had weakened our family, we stopped talking to each other and seeing each other around.
I broke my leg at the end of 7th grade and ended up being bed bound for 8 months. None of my “friends” had ever visited me, my girlfriend broke up with me. I didn’t have any friends who cared about me, I didn’t have a proper relationship with anyone in my family, I felt completely alone, unable to do anything. My family didn’t really want to support me and help me, spend time with me. They got angry and irritated when I asked for help, even when I was just asking for a glass of water. I became isolated. When I turned 12 I became very depressed, I started having suicidal thoughts every day as I was lying in bed and I didn’t understand that having suicidal thoughts wasn’t normal.
We used to have a babysitter who looked after us when we went to the pool. She was the nicest person I knew, she brought us burritos. When we told her that something’s wrong with the pool, she would always rush to us with burritos. The year I broke my leg she killed herself.
Thinking that the nicest person I knew would kill herself just like that, I decided that I should kill myself next. I started planning a suicide, but there was one thing that kept me from taking my own life – I kept remembering when I felt loved by my mom, I was only 9, and it was the only time I have ever felt loved by anyone in my family. She used to tell me that she loved me more than there were stars in the sky, deeper than the oceans and wider than the valleys.
As time went by, I became very overweight and even more depressed. I started noticing stretch marks all over my body caused by putting on a lot of weight in a very short amount of time – another reason for me to be self-conscious. My homeschooling didn’t work out and I had to go back to school. In school no-one remembered me nor recognized me, I was replaced in every friend group and every sports team. I felt like a nobody. This brought me to a whole new level of total depression and isolation. This time it wasn’t only me isolating myself, but everyone else isolating and ignoring me too. At that time, I didn’t have any adult influence in my life, no-one wanted to invest in me, everyone completely gave up on me.
I didn’t have any real friends, so I started trying to find comfort and acceptance in other things. I started relying on music, video games, and female attention. Soon I discovered drugs and alcohol. I barely graduated High school because I missed most of the classes while being very drunk or high. I barely remember High School, my memory of it is very blurry. But I remember some events that happened with clarity: in Junior year I became addicted to painkillers; I also became a part of a Fight club where I got my face smashed so bad that I needed to have reconstructive face surgery. A year before that I had an emergency appendix surgery and a shoulder surgery just a week later. I put on even more weight and had a 1.5-year phase in my life when I had only eaten doughnuts – I don’t know how I am still alive.
When I was 17 I moved out of my parents’ house because my dad was treating me with cruelty and I started living with my friend. I slept on his couch and his family were very nice to me, I wished they could have adopted me. On the week I moved out I also got kicked out of the wrestling team and my car broke down. I was in a pretty bad state.
I became friends with Satanists at school, their behavior and practices truly intrigued me. I saw them do weird things, I saw them interact with demons…I never became a Satanist myself, but was drawn into this kind of spirituality. I started seeking spirituality through demonic forces and various religions.
Halfway through Junior year I had a compulsive suicide attempt. I took a mix of painkillers, sleeping tablets, and other pills. To my surprise, I woke up, I was feeling very sick and high…wondering why I was still alive.
I started selling drugs and got into a lot of trouble, I was facing 35+ years in prison. I lost all hope for the future…But 2 days later I got a message from the father of the person I sold drugs to, saying: “I feel like you deserve a second chance.” So, I just carried on doing what I was doing before, the same lifestyle. I had no idea that was God protecting me and looking after me through it all.
After barely graduating I got arrested and got a DUI (Driving drunk). Luckily, they had only noted down “alcohol” on my ticket and didn’t write about the drugs I had on me. For about 3 more years I was addicted to drugs and had suffered from severe depression.
In 2016 I was still lonely and had no real friends. I started working at Walmart and was very successful in my career. It was planned for me to be sent to Alaska and become a manager. Thinking about my depression, I didn’t think Alaska would be the best place for me to move to. I kept feeling like I had more potential in life than just to have a generic corporate job. So, I quit my career and started living off my savings, I decided to become a self-produced entrepreneur. I started working with electronics and made a 3D printer and also made fidget spinners. While still feeling like I wanted something more in life, I dropped everything and focused on starting a new business. I wanted to make a safe hangout place for kids, to reach out to kids that were going through the same things I was, were facing the same situations and circumstances as me. I wanted to focus on kids who indulged themselves in video games and had no friends, faced loneliness. I spent a year working on this plan and looking for people who I could partner with, I was looking for opportunities. I started meeting with Young Life leaders (Youth Ministry) to promote their camps, I knew how fun and good those were for kids. I was met with a lot of enthusiasm from Young Life leaders and was shortly asked if I would like to become a leader.
I became the worst leader ever, I wasn’t a good role model for children. I wasn’t there for leadership, I was there for business and this attitude made all the difference. As time went by, I became close with one of the leaders. She was amazing, like the mother I have always wanted. She loved me, she cared for me, she wanted me to be happy. When I asked her how she was always so happy and friendly, she explained that it wasn’t because of her, but because she actually had God’s love inside her. I didn’t totally understand what she meant but I really wanted to experience it. So, I gave my life to Jesus on the 20th of April 2017.
My life instantly became better, even though I remained lonely and depressed, I knew that everything was about to change. I got an opportunity to work in a Youth Camp in July, on the coast of Oregon. It was a 5-minute walk from the beach, and I just thought: “Who wouldn’t love that?”, so I decided to go. There I saw God work and move for the first time in my life very clearly. I couldn’t exactly tell what God was doing, but I just knew He was there. I got baptized in the ocean, at midnight, with big cold waves crashing against me.
Unfortunately, I was still suicidal, I didn’t know that having those thoughts wasn’t normal. So, I started planning another suicide. I poured out 170+ painkillers into my hand, I was so close to taking them…I planned out how to kill myself so no-one would find my body. Whilst following my plan I started getting very scared. On the same night as my planned suicide, we were having a Carnival game night at the camp, so everyone was praying for it. I broke down and opened up to a lady and she prayed for me. She took my burdens and my problems, she took my suicide and prayed against them, she destroyed them with the sword of the Spirit, silencing Satan in prayer, in Jesus name. I had been suicidal for 12 years, and after that night I was never suicidal again.
So instead of building a business, I started building a ministry, to be led by God and reach out to lost children. I knew God would use me for that purpose.
I started working at a Day Care, where I was earning just over minimum wage. I longed to invest the money into my ministry to buy games, prizes and Christmas gifts for kids. Shortly I started running out of my savings money that I earned while working at Walmart. The lady who prayed for me in the camp invited me to go to “Awaken the Dawn” – 5-day 24/7 Worship and Praise festival, with 50 tents – one for each State. I really wanted to go, so after booking the flight and the tickets, I completely run out of money.
One week before my flight I got a call from my mom, who told me that she and dad are getting a divorce and the main reason for that was me. I went back to self-harming, became very isolated and detached. When I arrived to “Awaken the Dawn” I was far from God, I closed myself off to Him, I didn’t want to be there anymore. But I stayed.
I felt like I wanted to deprive myself of sleep, this was my way of taking the burdens of other people who were affected by hurricanes, I called it “sleep fast”. Overall, I didn’t sleep for 3 days. On the first day of my fast, someone came up to me at 2 am and asked me to lead a prayer meeting. I really didn’t want to do that, but when I actually agreed to it, God had totally opened my heart to Himself. On the next day of my fast I met a very passionate Christian, he was radical in his faith and had a very personal and special relationship with Jesus. Someone had brought us lunch and said they felt like I should talk to this person, so I did. I was really enjoying our conversation, I got very interested and asked him a lot of questions. God brought me a huge revelation through him, I had finally realized that God wants to have a personal intimate relationship with me, talk to me and that I could hear and recognize His voice. From then on, I started hearing God clearly. Then God did something very sweet and bizarre, I found a note that had “Thank you” written on it and also had my phone number written on the back. For me, it was as if God was saying “Thank you for finally answering my calling”.
The next day I started meeting a lot of different important people. I was hearing God speak to me very clearly, wherever I went. I started being truly led by Jesus and was praying for people a lot. I was called to come into the Wyoming tent, so I just sat down to worship there. Then suddenly a lady came up to me and asked where I was from when she heard that I was from Wyoming, she told me that someone needed to pray for me, so I followed her. 6 people started praying for me and telling me about the Holy Spirit. It was the first time I heard about Him, I never before knew anything about being baptized in the Holy Spirit, but now I knew I was truly being born again, born of the Spirit of God. I felt drenched in prayers and full of the Spirit. One of the ladies told me I needed to get some sleep, gave me money for the food and somebody else brought me keys to the hotel room. God had truly provided a nice hotel room for me, I had a really good rest.
I spent the next day getting to know God better, being led by the Holy Spirit, meeting people and speaking God’s truth into their lives. God led me to an empty tent so I stepped in and started praying…a moment after I stepped in, people came up to me and started telling me about a miracle: they saw a Bible that started leaking oil. I wasn’t comfortable with that, I thought it was very weird, I never heard anything like that before. But people of God who surrounded me had peace, so I felt there was nothing to worry about, God was with me. I was prayed for and anointed with the oil.
I was called back into the Wyoming tent and saw a blind man who was speaking to and praying for people. He prayed over everyone in the tent but me, as I was watching from the back. Before he left someone grabbed him and lead him to pray for me. He started saying something that I had always wished I heard my father say to me…he laid his hands on me and kept repeating: “I am proud of you son” – I knew that was my Father God speaking to me through him. Then he continued: “I have put you through the finest of fires and you have not said a word. You will receive a dream of a wave of fire falling upon you and you will wake up shaking with the new faith. Your next assignment is to go to the top right of Wyoming to the bottom left in a backward L shape.” I didn’t understand what that meant but I believed this message was from God. I wrote it down, started thinking and praying about it, talked to people about it, trying to understand.
It was raining heavily the next day, I found a shelter and watched everyone worship from afar. God instructed me to step into the rain…I love the rain, so I was happy to do that. Then He asked me to take my sweatshirt off, and then to go and worship with everyone else. It was raining really heavily and walking under this pouring rain with God made me feel more alive than ever.
The Lord started giving me visions and specific words for different people. I spoke to people, prayed and worshiped with them for hours. God kept putting more and more people before me to talk to about Him and things He told me.
So that’s how I finally started living, living the true life. God deserves the highest praise, He saved me and delivered me from the depth of darkness into His glorious light.
When I returned home I started telling everyone about what had happened and what God had done. Then for the first time, I heard God’s voice audibly…it was as if He was sitting with me in the car. He said to me: “Go to the guest point in Cheyenne and declare My name”, so I obeyed. And I continued declaring His name. For another 2 months, I was being sent daily by Him to different places and to different people, He led me on prayer walks and instructed me to give out food to certain people.
In the beginning of December, I found YWAM Wales based in Wrexham UK, with DTS called “Spirit and Fire”, which is a 6-month Discipleship training course that is divided into 2 parts: lecture phase and outreach phase (mission trips to Serbia and Croatia). God spoke to me about it and said that He wanted me to do this DTS.
Now, after the DTS has finished, I am back to America, but now I feel God is calling me to serve Him in YWAM Derby in England. For that I need £425 a month in donations.
I know God will provide me with all I need. I long to listen to Him daily, grow in my relationship with Him and to be bold, obedient and courageous when He sends me out to do His mission.
I also want to introduce my personal ministry, it is called “Kn00b L33g”, it is a video game ministry, focused on reaching out to children for Christ while spending time with them and playing video games together, getting to know each other. I want kids to feel like they are a part of something, a part of a team, that they belong somewhere.
Please, could you pray for me and, if God leads you to, help me financially too. If the Lord leads you to invest in me and my spiritual growth, my walk with Christ, and you would obey, I would be eternally grateful for that.
My personal email address and PayPal is: firstname.lastname@example.org
Please let me know if you would like to hear any updates from me.
I thank you for the time you took to read my story, for your prayers and for your generosity.
Lots of love in Christ and God bless,
Please check out Rikiki’s personal blog where he will be posting news and updates from his life and walk with God: https://heirofire.wordpress.com
If Rikiki’s story moved your heart, please be welcome to get in touch with him and encourage him, he will be very grateful for that. Also, please pray for him and if the Lord leads you to speak to him, please do. Please obey the Holy Spirit if He leads you to help Rikiki in any way in His journey with the Lord, whether it is by being his friend, by praying for him or by providing financial support…or in any other way the Lord leads.
Jesus loves you,